Hello everyone! Here I am again to rant about my problems 😅.
So in January I wrote a post called Decisions about careers and choosing A-levels, as well as how unsure I am about what I want to do. Now I’ve started A-levels, I thought I’d give another update/ rant about this (first world problems).
I ended up going for maths, physics, chemistry and history for my A-levels. So far I’m really enjoying them all- though the work can be a bit challenging at times, but that isn’t really surprising. The choice between biology and physics was always hard- biology was something I loved and would open my doors, similarly physics would lead to my dreams of space- science, which I’m not quite ready to give up yet.
Although I’ve gotten past choosing A-levels, college has been talking about working towards a degree/ career path. And like in January- not much has changed, I’m still clueless.
I think I want to go into science- but I’m still unsure as to what. Taking physics means I’m probably not going to get into med school- but I’m not sure that that’s what I want to do. I love the idea of researching the universe- but I’m scared I’m going to be stuck in a monotonous office job, or it’s not as I hope. I don’t want to regret doing a degree to start a job that I hate. Part of me is scared I won’t get even close to the grades I need to get anywhere of significance. The existentialist in me doesn’t want to just sit around- but to make a difference to the world ( over- ambitious, I know) .
I’m scared of so many things going wrong when it comes to careers. I think I’m also scared of actually deciding on what I want to do as it’ll affect the rest of my life.
I think I’m overthinking, I use the phrase ‘i think’ too much because I don’t actually know. And again, that’s scary.
I’m going to try and research further into degrees and careers- and do more work experience to try and settle for an end goal- or at least to narrow down the list.
I don’t know- thanks for readin’ this drivel to the end